Tuesday 30 December 2014

My day 1, I should be on day 5 today, but day 4 was tough, aches and pains in my body, a slight headache, one or 2 beers will fix that, and it did, then I snuck in a third, it's nothing compared to what I'm used to consuming anyway, so I will be fine I told myself... I was wrong though as I woke up today after a crappy sleep and am grouchy and fuzzy and lazy as per my usual mornings, so so disappointed in myself. I have just started reading Sober blogs and it's really opened up a whole new world for me, I no longer feel so alone in my drinking problem, the thoughts of these fellow bloggers are my exact thoughts , I am so relieved and happy to have found them. I've tried hypnosis, psychology  and charity based program to help problem drinkers such as myself manage their drinking. None of these lead to me successfully cutting down (or out) my drinking. This is my last chance and I WILL succeed as I have no choice, I have to. My marriage, job and family unit depend upon it. It's become unmanageable for me now, to the point where I've been ready to check into Gray lands (mental institution) or a rehab program, this is almost impossible for me as I have such a young family who depend so highly on me, 2 year old, 4 year old and 7 year old.

This time my day 4 will be successful and I won't cave in and drink as I will manage my discomfort better and take panadol lots of soda and lime, and eat diet jelly. Any other tips would be greatly appreciated....

2 comments:

  1. Dear Meg,
    I was you almost five years ago, except I had many more years of drinking despair behind me. My kids were grown and I had grandkids. I had struggled on my own for years, tried journaling, tried everything except reaching out for help. Then I started a blog, I had no idea how it was going to help me get sober, but there were smarter powers watching over me. I have been sober for almost four years now. You've started on this journey and even though you may think you are going backwards at times, you never really go back to where you started.
    One foot in front of the other. Congratulations on every step forward.

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  2. Oops! Sorry, just realized that your post was written several months ago, hopefully you have taken mean steps by now. Do you have another blog somewhere, I saw your comment on Ainsobriety.

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